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Give

Posted by admin on February 7th, 2008 in and · 0 Comments

I come in the fruit store. There is a guy there asking if he can take some food that are pass due date, the cashier says no… He had a quick glance, somehow as if he knew me, or if he was aware that I was aware…

I go buy my food, chosing some vegetable to make a healthy and cheap lunch. I buy myself a candy bar, have my own bag, 10$ lunch, all good.

I leave the fruit store to buy some computer memory for the office. I met the same guy on the street. Again he ask for a part of the candy bar I was chewing on. I motion negatively, mostly as a defense mechanism. Then I felt bad. For some reason. Maybe I was hungry, maybe he was hungry. I don’t know.

I got out of the computer store, the feeling was still with me. “Just go back to that street corner, it’s not far” I tell myself. I am not sure and decide to cross the street instead, but there are cars coming on both side. In distance I see him begging for food from car to car. I come up to the corner street and ask him if it’s okay I buy him food. He has scars in his face, maybe from drug, I don’t know.

In the fruit store the cashier is not too happy to see him back, I tell her that I will buy food for him. He choose yogurt and a chocolate milk, I ask if he wants more, he take an egg sandwich. I feel uncomfortable. I want that moment to pass faster. At the cashier, I give her my card, she smiles to me, understand what I am doing. I want to leave, she give me back my card, I say “Bonne appetit” with a french accent, but I can’t get away. He comes out at the same time as me, I shake his hand. I am not sure what is my judgment, he tells me his name ‘Matthew’, I say great, and leave…

I look back when I cross the street, he stayed in the entrance of the fruit store. Something in me wants to burst out, I can’t keep it in and start to cry. I don’t know why I cry, but it feel liberating.

Stepping out of my comfort zone, but from a place of intuition, not by simply forcing myself to act generously. Why did I choose to give to him instead of someone else? There was something I needed to do and I did it, from my heart. It’s a great reminder of how it feels to act from a place of compassion and intuitive knowledge. I often wonder how to act, what is my life purpose and all these crazy question. But sometime I live a short experience like this one and I understand that the path to live a purposeful life is to follow and act upon these intuitive glimpses…

Form

Posted by admin on January 31st, 2008 in

There is not much to learn for doing web design:

  • Menu
  • Layout
  • Forms

Then you learn few content management, Wordpress, Drupal, Joomla, andshopping cart, and learn how to customize them. I am still learning all that and in the last week I built a form that is sent to my client. Form has few step. Layout, data entry, form verification and form processing; wether the form is sent to and e-mail or the for is sent to a database.

What I did was a simple form, using a php scrip to send the for by e-mail and some javascript for the verification (not done at this moment) and javascript for the date picker. I could have gone quite further with the form making but I feel that was a good start. I search extensively trough the net to gather all the technical info about form and here what I found :

Date picker

http://frequency-decoder.com/ Please visit the site as well, search engine is quite cute and fancy. The direct link to the datepicker page is : http://www.frequency-decoder.com/2006/10/02/unobtrusive-date-picker-widgit-update

Php form mailer

http://thedemosite.co.uk/phpformmailer/ Really simple and easy to customize, I added some header to the mail out in order to create HTML mail out:

$headers = 'MIME-Version: 1.0' . "\r\n";
$headers .= 'Content-type: text/html; charset=iso-8859-1' . "\r\n";

Here are some other link that I found around that were also really useful:

Form field hints with CSS and JavaScript (Ask the CSS Guy)

dompdf - The PHP 5 HTML to PDF Converter


Nidahas » Forms markup and CSS - Revisited
CSS-Based Forms: Modern Solutions | CSS | Smashing Magazine

wForms - A Javascript Extension to Web Forms - The Form Assembly - The Form Assembly

PHP: mail - Manual


Generating and Validating Web Forms With PEAR HTML_QuickForm (part 2)



SkillShare Forum - CSS Beauty - Best Practices for HTML forms with required fields based on a conditional

http://ilija.biz/projects/uniform/

http://www.noupe.com/css/47-excellent-ajax-css-forms.html

fear

Posted by admin on January 17th, 2008 in and · 0 Comments

I meditate every day. At my 29th birthday, I stayed silent for the day, and decided to chant every morning and every night, for one year. It’s the first time I take such a commitment. It’s been a bit more than 6 months now.Last week, I meditated for a longer period.

I came to a very familiar place, a place of fear. It’s a very interesting fear that I encounter when I chant for a long time. There is no reason behind that fear, there is no object. There is a weird image forming in my mind, and there is a feeling of a presence, observing me, or simply being there with me. This time, it really felt like ghostly presence. Long face, whitish suffering.  It’s the first time I came to that point here in montreal in my new apartment.  I kind of like that place of fear, but I am also wondering if there is more to it. For me the fear is a simple reaction of my ego not wanting me to deepen my practice, but there is also an understanding that maybe something else is opening.

Are these fear real entity that I can feel once I am in a deeper meditation state? I don’t know, but it motivate me to meditate more and experiment with all that.  

8bit power

Posted by admin on December 19th, 2007 in · 0 Comments

Some movie and pic from the 8bit party in montreal a few weeks ago!   (more to come)  

movie

movie

new year

Posted by admin on December 18th, 2007 in · 0 Comments

So the design is getting there, nothing to special… Now it’s a question of bringning more content :) 

new design!

Posted by admin on December 17th, 2007 in · 0 Comments

Maybe it will motivate me to post more, to see my old site you can still visit gef.freeshell.org, I’ll be moving all the material over here, even with the old post. The design is not final, just a quick hack of a nice theme. The picture in the banner is from the ashram, yet I am in montreal now, more to come.  light 

back to school

Posted by admin on October 30th, 2007 in · 0 Comments

So I haven’t post for few months now. The training at the ashram was intense and good. 

I am back in Montreal and I am freaking out about life. The spiritual path is not a path of ease and spiritual experience. It’s a in between place, where the temptation is there, but also the knowledge that this temptation is useless because it will create more temptation and it will lead me on well known road that always end up in a mess. I met a girl this weekend, this as been one of the most intense reaction I had to a girl in the last year or so. I am praticing sexual continence since few weeks and I have a lot of sexual energy stored up.Like I say, my balls are full. But I don’t want a girlfriend.

 But I played the game, charming smiling, ignoring. Was I playing alone? Maybe. I don’t even know if she was into it. I know now she has a steady sex partner and seems quite satisfyed with that setup. I am not sure about her, but I know I screw her picture down in my guts. I get all emotive when thinking about her. It is so strange, but I know… The more I practice, the more I cultivate my energy, the more potent this energy become.And with that, I need to be really carefull how I behave simply because of the energy that I am building up. And it goes for everything in life. I bought 500$ of video games when I came back from the ashram. And nothing new, a good old school Dreamcast, so I could buy 20 games with it, with the light guns and the steering wheel… So many games I could play non stop for few months.

And of course it’s on the floor picking up dust. I enjoyed more buying the games and finding them than playing. But I end up with tons of games and a loaded credit card. There seems to be some sort of link between these 2 event. Girls and video game. Trying to get some satisfaction, but just ending up with more worries than pleasure. And it seems to be a pattern that come with yoga, meditation and spiritual life. You can’t mix both… I can’t gather energy with all my guts and conciousness and then wasting it in a night of unconscious behavior. It’s a hard path, and it’s slow. I cannot force anything and do more than the environment I am in. I have to much energy now for what I am doing. In any case, I wonder what God wasdoing when he was not creating the world…

I feel better now and I think I will simply be satisfied with what I am and what I have and take more of a semi-god like attitude with all this energy feeding me. Relaxed, poised and in control, like Siva looking at the world without being in the world… 

light 

synthetic genomics

Posted by admin on June 30th, 2007 in · 0 Comments

synthetic genomics where are we going? this sounds more like sci-fi or shamanism

They create synthetic DNA and implement it into a bacteria then simply the life reorganize itself, and the bacteria change spiecies…  read more